Today I wish I was at Disneyland. I have almost no negative memories of times at Disneyland. I mean, how can you? I truly feel it is the happiest place on earth. I literally want to cry right now thinking about all the great times I've had there.

I grew up in Virginia, and went to Disney World once when I was 3. I have only two memories- trying to hit bees with a wiffle bat at the campground we stayed at, and playing in the Swiss Family Robinson treehouse.

So from the time I was three until I was 21- I had never really even thought much about Disney. I had always wanted to go back to Disneyworld, mostly because a lot of friends and family members got to go, and it made me insanely jealous.

When I moved to California in 2005, the thought of going to Disneyland never really crossed my mind either. Then in March of 2006, Dylan and I got to go down to Southern California with her dad. We stayed a night in Anaheim, and we got to go to Disneyland. It felt so cool to go there! I mean, growing up, only the cool kids got to go to Disney! But it was hot, and crowded a bit. Lines were long, and I hate lines. But that didn't stop me from enjoying the happiest place on earth.

We only got to spend a day there- but when I found out we would be moving to Southern California for law school, the first thing I thought about? DISNEY! I was so excited we would be getting season passes. We went for our wedding anniversary, and our presents to each other was our season passes.

Anyway, I eventually became a Disney freak. Just like those people I used to make fun of for being all OMG DISNEY?!

And now I see Disneyland tweet something, or their commercial, I get sad. I don't really miss anything about California. I really miss Disney.

I'm also sad, thinking about last March, when my mom, brother and his then girlfriend came to visit. It was such a great weekend, and I loved getting to share the Disney magic with them.

I'm feeling very sad for my brother right now. He's broken up with his fiance, after it looks like there may have been some instances of cheating (or almost cheating) on her part. I feel so very sad. I'm sad that he's hurt. I'm sad that he is feeling even more insecure about himself than he already did. I'm sad because I really, really liked her. I've never liked anyone he's dated. As soon as I met her, I loved her. She was so sweet, and so much fun. I would have never thought she would do something like this to my brother.

I haven't spoken to her at all. Her cell phone was on my brother's plan (and he's taken it back from her), she's deleted her facebook. I still have her email, but don't really want to email her. I feel like maybe just something isn't right. Surely, this is all some big misunderstanding.

I'm sad for my brother. I wish I could be near him, give him a big hug, and just let him know that it hurts now, but it'll get better with time. And if she did cheat, or partake in activities that would have led to cheating, she wasn't worth it. He deserves someone that will be there with him 100%.

I love my brother, and times like this make me very sad that we live across the country from each other.

So I finally posted my Mission 101 list. I'm really hoping to get through as much of it as I can. There's some interesting things on there for sure.

This weekend will be busy. I have a ton of school stuff to plow through, as well as things for my etsy shop.

I also need to find a job like mad.

*crosses fingers*

Mission 101

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (i.e., no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (i.e., represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

LEGEND:
Plain: unstarted goal
Italicized: In progress
Strike through: Finished

Start Date: 2/1/2010
End Date: 10/29/2012

Self/beauty/Health
1. Get a massage
2. Buy a 50's housewife dress
3. Develop a better skin routine
4. Give myself a pedicure
5. Get a bikini wax
6. Medidate 3 times (0/3)
7. Wear makeup everyday for a week (0/7)
8. Put together a complete outfit everyday for a week (hair/makeup/shoes/etc) (0/7)
9. Submit an OOTD to fatshionistas
10. Get a Disney themed tattoo
11. Get confirmed
12. Write a letter to someone 1x/week for a month straight (0/4)
13. Blog 1x/day for 30 days (0/30)
14. Confess 3 things in a 3 blog posts (0/3)
15. Lose 30% of my body weight
16. Work out 3x/week for a month straight (0/12)
17. Run 1 mile straight
18. Take the bus somewhere
19. Mail a secret to post secret
20. Answer "50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind", preferably with a journal entry for each (0/50) http://www.marcandangel.com/2009/07/13/50-questions-t
21. find a church and attend service 4 Sundays in a row (0/4)
22. Visit a doctor to work towards TTC
23. Join a church group
24. Make 5 new friends
25. Host a dinner party

Entertainment
26. Eat at one new restaurant per month for date night 12 times (0/12)
27. Go unplugged (no tv/internet/phone) for a weekend (Friday 5pm-Monday 6am)
28. take an activity class
29. Go to Rocky Horror Picture Show showing at midnight
30. Go to a Renn Faire
31. Go to high Tea
32. ride a horse
33. go to Karaoke
34. Finish FF7
35. See a play
36. buy a flat screen tv
37. Meet someone famous
38. Read the Bible
39. Have a Star Wars Marathon with all 6 movies
40. Read 100 books that I've never read before (0/100)
41. Read 10 Classic novels (0/10)
42. Attend a murder mystery dinner
43. Read 1 self-help book
44. Watch every movie in AFI list (0/100)
45. Watch 20 films made prior to 1970 (0/20)
46. Go to a Dave Matthews Concert
47. go bowling
48. watch all the episodes of Buffy in order

Cooking
49. bake a cake completely by scratch
50. Try Thai food
51. Cook a Julia Child recipe
52. eat fish tacos
53. Have a candle lit three course meal at home
54. Eat vegetarian for 30 days (0/30)
55. Eat nothing fried for 30 days (0/30)
56. Drink no soda for 30 days (0/30)
57. Try something I normally wouldn't on the menu
58. Make 5 different meals in the crockpot (0/5)
59. Host a holiday meal
60. Try sushi
61. Buy everything needed to cook a dinner at Pike street Market


Sightseeing/Travel
62. Go camping
63. Go to Canada
64. see the northern lights
65. Go white water rafting
66. Go to a Mariners game
67. visit a winery
68. Fly to Virginia to spend time with family
69. Visit Kurt Cobain's house
70. take the duck tour
71. Visit Brandon and Bruce Lee's grave
72. Take the seattle underground tour
73. Find 10 geochaches
74. Visit Florida (Disney World and Universal Studios)

Giving
75. Leave an inspirational note inside a book for someone to find
76. Donate blood
77. Volunteer 10 hours
78. Find a penpal
79. Pay for someone else's food behind me in the drive thru
80. Participate in a charity walk/run.
81. write to a death row inmate

Family/Marriage/pets
82. Start a savings account
83. Have boudoir photos taken
84. complete a relationship building exercise
85. Surprise Dylan with something unexpected (gift, trip, etc)
86. Take Dylan on a Picnic
87. Maintain a recipe box or cook book of recipes we make from home.
88. Take the dogs for a 30 minute walk 1x/week for a month. Try to keep it up after that
89. Try to Conceive
90. Get pregnant


Craftiness
91. Create a painting
92. Learn to embroider
93. Cross stitch something for immediate family Christmas presents (0/4)
94. create 5 new rubber stamp designs
95. Make a Harry Potter themed cross stitch
96. make a Twilight themed cross stitch
97. Make an angry bitch themed cross stitch
98. Buy an original piece of art

other:
99. Write a new 101
100. Donate $10 for each of these not completed.
101. Save $10 for each of these that are completed.

Weird, huh?

It's crazy that we leave LA and then a huge rain storm comes through. Of course that never happened in the 3 years that we lived there.

There are bits that I miss of Southern California. I must have watched the Princess and the Frog at least 3 times. It reminds me of my favorite part of Disneyland- New Orleans Square. I miss Disney so, so much. We'll probably be going back for Dylan's graduation in May (her school doesn't have a winter graduation). I'm hoping we'll be able to stay at one of the resort hotels, but I'm sure we won't be able to afford anything like that. I'll settle for one near walking distance! I'm going Disney stir crazy! It was just so awesome to be able to sit at home, say "Hmm.. I'm bored- I know! Let's go to Disneyland!"

Over the weekend we went to the Twilight Convention here in Seattle. Overall, I wasn't impressed. The price of it is just so expensive, and I don't know. I guess I was hoping for more. Maybe it would have been cooler if we stayed on site. We're going to the Portland one, and we might stay at the actual hotel for that one, so maybe it'll make things better. We also need to book a place for the New Moon DVD release in Forks. Dylan wants to stay at the Oceanside Resort at La Push, but on weekends they require a 2 night minimum stay, and I don't know if we'll do that or just stay 1 night in a hotel in Forks. But I want to figure it out soon before things book up. I know last year the town was pretty full.

But the convention was pretty cool because we did 3 of the photo ops- Peter Facinelli, Chaske Spencer, and the wolf pack. Mmm the wolf pack. LOL.

Still working on my Mission 101 list. I'm hoping to have it done by February 1st!

Hi Emmett, Kate and Bella!

First off, yes. I do use a web counter, which tracks who visits my blog. I can see how they were referred, what city they live in, what their IP address is, what pages they visit, how long they stay for, etc. So when I see that someone visits my blog from searching dragonflycurls in google, and they live in Edmonton, I know it's Bella! Hey There! And then I can see that someone living in Fresno, CA, came to my blog via a link sent to them on meebo.com, I know it's Kate! Hey there Kate! And then when I see that someone living in Wolverton, England found by blog from a link on twitter.com, I know it's Emmett- Hey there Emmett!

So, I'm still probably going to be changing my blog address. Or going private. I'm not sure yet.

Basically, I am a moderator for an online community. One person in particular crossed several lines with myself personally, but also with other members of the community. Being manipulative, fabricating lies about people in the community (which could have gotten them removed). When these lies caught up to her, we had no choice but to remove her.

Well, this girl also belonged to another online community. She decided to tell them who knows what. They decided that out of the 4 moderators of our website- I was the person to blame. But never the girl who lied and manipulated situations, getting our other members in trouble.

They basically took a photo of me, and I can only guess, they posted it on an "anonymous" twitter account calling me Jabba the Hambeast. I personally found it rather hilarious. It actually makes me quite proud really. If the worst you can say about me, is that I'm fat, well things are great for me! Calling me fat is not an insult to me. It's the truth! I'm fat. I know this. Telling me that I'm fat, will not make me go cry in my bed in the dark eating Ben and Jerry's.

So, yeah. Not sure what I'm going to do yet. Other than laugh. A lot. A whole lot.

blah.

Due to some very, very unfortunate drama, I will be changing the address of my blog within the next day or so. Just need to come up with a name first.

Oh.

Apparently my new posts are better than my old one says an anonymous commenter. I'm not sure how to take that, but I guess it's nice that people like what I write? I guess?

I'm putting together a Mission: 101 list. Basically you create a list of 101 things you would like to do in 1001 days. I already know that one of the items will be to blog once a day for 30 days. Hopefully my life will get more exciting and I'll have things to write about for 30 days.

It seems like my life is really boring, but I think we have some exciting things on the horizon- TTC in about a year. Yikes. I've wanted to have kids, oh forever it seems. I was totally even that teenager that wanted to be a mom. I love kids. I spent my summers in high school being a nanny. I babysat every weekend during the school year. I always helped out my large extended family by watching their kids and being a mommy helper when I was little. I remember when I was in 5th grade my aunt had a baby, I stayed over almost every Friday night. I just loved being around that little baby! It's really hard to believe that little baby turns 16 in March. HOLY COW. I've officially hit that moment in time when I can be like "oh I remember when I changed your diapers!" My how time flies.

So. I need to get healthy. I need to lose... jeez. At least 100lbs. I have no idea what I'm going to do or how I'm going to do it. No more eating out. Eating salad every night with dinner. Eat less carbs. Eat more vegetables and fruit. Work out!

I wish there was a magic button I could push and magically lose weight and magically get pregnant.

Oh, and magically have money. That'd be nice too.